let[ting] go

February 10, 2009

i am turning off the edit button in my head for this one.

//love is handing your heart to someone and taking the risk that they will hand it back because they don’t want it
//love is a giving away of power
//love is giving up control. love and controlling power are mutually exclusive
//there is something about losing yourself to another and their losing themselves in you at the same time… if one holds back, if one refrains, it doesn’t work.

do you realize that you are worth dying for?

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God has placed several strong women in my life who have been exactly what i need at this moment. Seriously. The Strength I am Experiencing is certainly nothing I can find on my own. I sometimes sit back and even question how possible it is to know such a thing in such a short amount of time. Moments come where I find myself clinging to thoughts that only lead to darkness, but I don’t settle there. I know my value and beauty now more than ever.

Tonight when i told one of these such women the couple statements that have slipped back into my head at times she said something that brought even more clarity and peace.

“i can’t do this for you really just means i can’t do this.”

it’s not me.

and believing this has made all the difference.

and reading this in the days/weeks/whatever-time-needed will be what brings Restoration when those other thoughts serve to steal the joy that is always presently available to me.

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One Response to “let[ting] go”

  1. Hilary Says:

    i know this is lame but i read it in the bathroom at sam and zoe’s and i love it.

    “I am loved. I am loving. And I am loveable.”


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